Wednesday, May 29, 2013


Awww, who can't love a guy who gives you books?
Randi showed up to tutor me this afternoon and he had a package with him (and while yes, he did have that kind of package, that's not what I'm talking about you perv!) He brought me a present!!!

Even better, he's obviously listened to me when I'm talking about stuff because he got me not just any old books, but books I wanted! He got me 6 books from the Dresden Files (books 2-8) so I'm finally going to get to read them! And he got me Four Robin Hobb books (Dragon Keeper, Dragon Haven, Shaman's Crossing and Forest Mage. I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo going to be reading this week!

No matter what else, I'm a happy girl today!

Sunday, May 26, 2013


Despite all my worries and everything else I had a really great time last night!

Trin ran Champions for us and it was good. It was us (The Metro Avengers) up against some evil minions. We kicked ass although Volt (my electrical powered girl) got her ass kicked too. Something about being grounded. I can't say that I was tracking everything through the night since I was still pretty tired, but hey, coca cola, little debbie snack cakes, and dominos pizza go a loooooooooong way!

I think we should try to play champions more often maybe switching off from AD&D every couple weeks. I think it might be better. It's kind of more light hearted than the current campaign we're on. Maybe I ought to mention it next week and see what everyone else thinks.
I'm going downstairs now, going to have some cereal and then I'm going back to bed for as long as I can.

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Tired! Sooooo Tired!

I'm so tired! I think I got about an hour of sleep before Jean woke me up. She was all over wanting to know where I'd been. And yes, thankfully, she'd covered my ass with her parents. Yay!

We're going to hit the store before we go over to Jeff's for gaming. I need to pick up a 6 pack of coke or there's no way I'm going to be able to stya awake through the session. I hope Trin decides to run Champions. I don't really want to play star wars, and I think playing with the Metro Avengers (Our team from the last time we played) would be fun (and not too taxing).

So, should I try to call Randi today?

Wild night

Where do I begin?

Oh, maaaan. Where do I begin?
The beginning? Yea, ok.
I didn't get home until about 5am. I'm going to be in a world of trouble if Jean didn't cover for me last night. I really hope she did.I'll find out when I go down to breakfast...later.

Things didn't go quite as I'd planned last night.
First of all, Randi and I skipped Denny's. We decided to just go to the park and hang out. It was really nice and we just talked. He listened to me ranting about the crap Shay's pulled. At least he understands why I'm so bothered. Although he did say I ought to look at it as an opportunity. It's a good school he says. *shrug *
I guess. I'd feel better about that if I'd been the one making the decision.

So last night, we were hanging out in the park. We walked around for a while, looked at the stars and stuff. That was romantic. It was probably about 10:30 and Randi said he'd better get me home. I kissed him instead. And things kind of went from there. I know what you're thinking--but you're wrong. I didn't have sex with him! I just...we just sort of cuddled. and a bit more.
Would I have had sex with him? Yea, if there'd been someplace other than the car. But he couldn't take me back to his parents, and I couldn't take him back to Jean's and I didn't want to do it in the bushes.
But it was really nice anyway. Maybe even nicer because we didn't. I told him to think about it, and that I'd like him to be my first. But I want a proper bed so he'll need to figure that out.
Ha ha. He can figure that out while I try to pass my finals next month, avoid Josie & co, Shay and all the rest of the nastiness in my life.

Did I mention that he really, really knows how to use his hands?
I bet Jean is gonna wake me up as soon as she gets up to find out what happened! LOL

Friday, May 17, 2013

Tests Taken, Worlds forsaken

Took the stupid tests today.
I didn't throw them even though I guess I should have... I think I probably did ok on them, but they weren't really what I was expecting. I was expecting them to be more like the SATs but they were sort of--but peppered with things like the shrinks give you for personality tests. I don't know.

Anyway, the good news is that Shay's gone and it's Friday night.
Randi's gonna take me out to Denny's in a bit and after to the park, and tomorrow the group is gaming again. Thank god for that, seriously. I so need that after this week. I don't even care what we play (I don't think it'll be Ad&D this time, since last time Trin mentioned wanting to run something and he only does Sci-fi stuff. Maybe we'll play Champions or Star Wars or something. I just don't care right now. I just want to play and forget everything else.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Why fix it if it's not broken? AKA My sister-- ruler of my life :(

Wtf is my sister trying to do to my life? What!???
So she came into town on Monday and met me at school. I still wasn't clear on why exactly she was there. I didn't actually find out until Tuesday when I was in the office with Mr.Andrews and her. Then it came out. She'd been deciding what to do with me / deciding how I should live my life.

Essentially, she'd applied earlier in the year for me to be able to skip a grade. I feel really, really, no--utterly---retarded. I don't know why I didn't see it sooner.
With the exception of Algebra II all of the classes I'm taking are at AP level.
Stupid, Stuuuuuuuuupid. Increeeeeeeeeeeeedibly Stuuuuuuuuuuuuupid!

It's horrible.
And they aren't even listening to what I have to say. Wtf? Why even have me there in the first place if they're going to ignore me anyway?
This is so wrong! My sister, the college professor is schmoozing her way and blergh! Double Blergh!

Jean suggested that I could throw the tests (I have to take some kind of tests on friday) but I think it wouldnt matter. Shay's obviously determined about this, so I might as well lump it. I'd like to know how she managed to square it with her job. I mean, I'm a good student (now that my 3.89 is a few points closer to 4.0 thanks to Randi's tutoring) but I'm not exactly Ivy league material. And I'm only a junior. Early admission to Universities should be hard, right?

So what's she done?
How's she managed to get them to consider me at least? She wouldn't tell me other than to say that come August I'd have to go with her to Quinlan for a final interview. If that works out I'll start then, if not then I get shoved into some local High school there, in New Hampshire. WTF? Can't I even have my senior year at Rochester? I've been here for all 3 years so far. It isn't fair.
I so totally hate her!

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Deities & Demi Gods: yes! yes! Yes!!!

I loooooooove Jean!
She's really and truly the best friend I could ever have! *happy dance* She got me a surprise gift (isn't that awesome? It IS, but not as awesome as the gift!)
This is what she got me:
I know, I'm totally geeking out here --but awesome, isn't it?
This is something I've been wanting for a while but haven't gotten--and I swear Jeff's been pulling it out on the weekends just so I could stare at it and want it!  She gave it to me tonight at the gaming session and I think I must have really made everyone laugh cos I was so excited I actually jumped up and went "Woo!"

She told me she got it for a reasonable price, and that I should enjoy it. That the last few months have been crummy (the whole thing with Josie & Co) and that this is for me. Plus, she knows that Shay's coming soon and neither of us think anything good can come of that!

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Shay Strikes Back

I knew it was just too good to be true--that my sister, Shay was keeping quiet and (mostly) out of my life. It turns out that she's been talking to my teachers on the phone about how I'm doing and what kind of grades I've been getting. Blergh!

It's a good thing that Randi's been able to help me with the math as much as he has (although with the other stuff....not so much so.

He hasn't exactly pushed me for more, but you know.
I feel like he expects it. And I don't want to.) Huh. It's probably good that Shay doesn't know about that either--she'd probably lock me up in a nunnery somewhere after she chewed Randi to bits and spit him out.

So she's coming to town on the 16th to have a conference with my counselor, and she said something about tests I have to take. I thought she meant my finals (those are next month! Eeeek!) but now I'm not so sure.  I guess I'll find out then. But it sucks that she's going to be here. She'll be watching everything and telling me how everything I eat is going to make me fat(ter). Blergh! Like anyone cares, you know?

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Iskara: Ambassador from Darkmoors

Get that, sounds good, right?
Jeff emailed me some info last night with more info about what the sessions'll be about. I'm psyched since Iskara gets to be someone important this time in the scheme of things (must be all that secret spying and dealing I was doing, eh? hehe!) of course last time I was the junior ambassador, and since then I got a promotion (and Briana died mwhaha)

So I've been chosen to represent the Principality of Darkmoor to the court of Yovaak the Red. I'm supposed to be on a mission about trade agreements, and stuff but really, Iskara is supposed to meet one of her spy informants, and even better yet, arrange for the assassination of Yovanak and his heir. Get that! Cool, right? It's been left up to me if I'm going to try to do it myself, or if I'm going to try to use some of my agents. Coolness, right?

Well I need to get a move on in the sewing department. I Made a new pair of pirate-pants & a tunic, but I haven't even started the dress (ok Jean and I think we've worked out a pattern for it, but I still have to sit down at the machine and piece it together--and well, Math, and Randi kind of cut into my sewing time. But I'm promising to buckle down---maybe I can get it done by the end of next week?
Anyway, this is roughly the dress I'm trying to make (with fixes for my chest--I gotta make it so I can definitely wear my bras under it since I can't make a corset).
Just pretend the boobs are bigger and that's what it'll hopefully look like (well, except of course, it'll be blue and the belt is silver and all around the hemline is trim, and the buttons are silver too.) It's a bit ambitious for me, but why not?

Friday, May 3, 2013

Iron Hard....and Groping

Soooo. Randi picked me up tonight and we went over to Cinema 12 to catch Iron Man 3.
I was totally excited and trying not to be. Partly because well, Robert Downey JR is hot (even for an old guy!), partly because my date is hot, and hello, I thought--I'm holding the winning ticket! I didn't think it could get better than that, I really didn't.

About the movie...I'm not sure how much I can comment on. It rocked, and I definitely want to see it again (it was even nicer since Randi paid for it and I didn't have to--although I guess I actually did pay for it since I bet he's using the money he gets for tutoring me. Huh. Is that ethical?)

Ok, and at what point to I admit to being more interested in the movie, than in what Randi's arms/hands were doing?  I know he's hot, and I assume he knows it too, but we're watching a movie. Like, a movie that was actually interesting AND funny, and every couple of minutes his hands were on my shoulders, or my neck or playing with my hair.

Errr.... Not to be rude, but it was a gooood movie.
I dunno. The opening. I mean, if he was just taking me there to try to make out with me we could have gone another night, one that you know---wasn't packed to overflowing with people? I think the guy sitting next to me was getting irritated by how often I kept shifting in my seat. It wasn't really the romantic sort of place you want to try to get your kiss, you know? Maybe it is if you're an exhibitionist, but I'm not, so it wasn't working for me.

So at about the point that pepper potts was getting thrown across the room Randi leaned in and started kissing my neck. Um...........Um. Um, what?
Fair's fair that OMG it felt good. Ok? I can admit that. (again, I'm not liking the audience being able to see me better than the freakin movie) but at the same time I really just wanted to push him away and smack him. I really, really wanted to see the movie...
On the other hand, I did want to get kissed.
I guess I wanted my cake and the chance to eat it too?

Whatever.  We're leaving the movie & heading for his car. He's got a little Nissan, and I wouldn't mind having one like it (yea, right. Shay won't let me have a part time job, she sure as hell won't let me get a car!)

So we're in the car and he turns to me and says, "So what now?"
I think I looked like a dork because I was assuming he was talking about the kissing and stuff. So I shrugged a bit and gave him a smile. Now that we were out of the public eye I didn't mind getting kissed.  Instead, he says: "Do you want to go right home, or wanna grab something from Denny's?"
Um. Neither. I wanted the dork to kiss me.
It didn't happen.

So I said Denny's was fine (who can resist a place that serves pancakes 24-7?) and off we went. It wasn't really that bad, or as awkward as I expected, since we sat and pretty much talked about the film. I'm honestly surprised how much he caught of it, considering that he was gnawing on my neck for a lot of it! Who can understand the way guys function? Sure as hell not me!

It turned out ok after all though, since we laughed a lot and joked. He dropped me off, and yes, we actually kissed in the car. Very nice, considering, even if it wasn't particularly romantic or anything.

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Something rotten in the state of Denmark

I guess I should have known that things were going too smoothly at school.
Josie & Co have started giving me a hard time again. Or at least I assume it's them. I got to school this morning and someone'd crazyglued a bunch of condoms to my locker. How gross is that? (Jean says I should just be happy they weren't used condoms! Blergh!)

I mean come on, it's not like I sleep around (I'm too afraid to. And besides, I don't think there's anyone in the whole school I'd trust to do that with. And not have it end up on youtube or prontube or whatever).

So what's brought this on?
Is it just the fact that they've left me alone long enough that I thought it was over and now they're starting it up again? Ugh. I so hate it when people screw around with me. I have enough things to worry about. Algebra for one. Finals are next month and while I'm sure I'll pass English & the rest with no problem (ok, a little unsure about my spanish) I'm worried about Math, and Chemistry since I am not concentrating so well and I keep messing up on the practice stuff.
Jean says not to let them get to me, and that if I ignore it that they'll get bored (again) and move on to someone else. I know she's right, but it still grates.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Maybe I AM living in Fantasy land!

Randi asked me out on a date! Yes, Hot-but-Mathgeek asked me out tonight! *dies with shock*
He said Iron Man 3 opens on Friday, and maybe we should go see it!???!!??????

Wow, am I like excited?
Why, yes, yes I am!

Randi's smart, hot and he's turned out to be a really nice guy (with a lot of patience when it comes to getting that algebra crap to stick in my brain!). Better yet, he's just turned 18 last week (I felt kind of bad I didn't know and gave him a card I made this week). I wonder if the card is what made him ask? So he's 18 and he's got a car--so no bussing it to the movie!
Plus, well, you know, he might just kiss me too!

Ok, now I'm sure I sound like a total dolt.
I'm going to try to focus on something else for a while! Yay! Go me!